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May 28 Work, work, work!!!Hmm... It's been a while since I posted here... Hmm... Well, I've been looking for a job since January, and there are two things I promised myself: one, I'll take a job that uses the skills I learned in college; and two, no more call centers! Three months passed, and still no job. Maybe I needed to compromise; to bow down to the whims of the call center industry. As luck would have it, someone gave me a suggestion to apply for a job that used my learned college skills. Unfortunately, it still involved the call center industry. Hey, it's not the best of both worlds, but I'll take one over none anytime!
So guess what? I officially have a job! Actually, I already had it over a month ago, but who cares? The funny thing is that everything has come full circle. Guess where I'm working right now c",). February 16 Nostalgia ManilaIf you're bored, and you just want to relive the days when you were a kid, then I'd recommend this site for you. http://nostalgiamanila.blogspot.com/ It has everything, from Bagets, old cartoons, Weng Weng, even games and watches! God, I miss those days! January 30 Clara EstrellaClara Estrella que Guipuzcoa Contemplo estaciada un dia Madre Candida Maria de Jesus Des del cielo donde moras El feliz arrobamiento Regocija el firmamento Con la gloria de tu luz Como Ignacio de Loyola Siembras por tierra Espanola Siembras de nobre ambicion Jesus, prematus fatigas Ya granan las espigas De la nueva fundacion Pobre artesana, sincienca Arumba tu inteligencia de dios El alto saber Siem emporios de fujanza Siem emporios de encenianza Vas levantado Vas levantado, do quier Ya el grito, de dios lo quiere Dios lo quiere, dios lo quiere Tucete al nunta nueve Tucete al mundo ala cruz Ala cruz Flota um bosque de banderas Son las hijas misioneras Son tus Hijas de Jesus Flota un bosque de banderas Son las hijas misioneras Son tus Hijas de Jesus November 23 Why?I attended three Sunday masses in the past month, and I've noticed the same topic given by the priests in their homilies. It's that people end up asking God, "Why me?", "Why us?" when bad things happen to them. Naalala ko na I questioned God dati when I was down. Tanong ako nang tanong, "Bakit? Bakit ganun?", and I thought that that was my natural reaction if something bad happened to me. Man normally questions whether a bad thing is somewhat caused by something bad they did before, or what they call "karma", and if they find no reason for "karma", then they would normally ask for a better reason, diba? But then the Fathers told me something I never thought of -- Why don't we ask the same thing when good things happen to us? Why not ask, "Why me?", when you win the lottery instead of saying "Thanks"? After thinking of all the good and bad things that happened to me, natanong ko sa sarili ko kung bakit nangyari sa akin yung mga yun. Naalala ko bigla yung hirit nila Sheila at Tito, ang "Why not?". I believe that we deserved all the good and bad that comes with us. Di naman siguro mangyayari sa atin lahat yun kung hindi nararapat sa atin diba? That's why hindi dapat "Why" ang sabihin natin, kundi "Thanks" lagi. Ewan ko ba, I feel that it's more appropriate to say "Thanks" to someone who gave us something than to ask "Why?" diba? It's the thought that counts, not what the gift is, right? Happy Thanksgiving everyone! October 03 What if earth is populated only by 100 people?Here is a nice link to the question I posed above: http://www.miniature-earth.com/ They proportioned almost every demographic they can think of here. It is a good site to know what the world looks like today. Read it! September 11 I'm back!Wala lang... Gusto ko lang magdagdag sa blog!
First blog ko to from the good ol' US of A...
Post ko yung pics later, alam ko namang miss na miss nyo na ako e!
Mamaya yan puno na ang album ko... Wait lang ha?
Yahoo! July 25 A Strange Day Indeed...Today was a weird day.
I was unable to get much sleep.
First thing I did was eat lunch.
Open the PC.
Browse and had fun of the Youtube videos I got forwarded with.
Played poker online.
Talked to a friend.
Suddenly another friend shows up.
Shows me something I have not seen in a long time.
And then the whole day went kaput.
Laughing a few hours earlier, I was suddenly quiet.
First, there was teasing.
I pleaded my friend not to.
To no avail.
Then, realization came.
I had to face this sooner or later.
Did I do it?
Yes, I did.
I saw everything with my own two eyes.
My whole facade fell apart.
I wish I could shout out what I am feeling.
I wish I could cry.
But I could not.
I do not want my folks to know.
My friend and I talked instead.
Exchanging ideas, observations and experiences.
Time and again we just pause and reflect.
Reflect on what we just said.
Then he gave me an advice.
This time I listened and understood.
But now, I am at work.
Looking for someone.
Someone to cushion every blow I will throw.
Someone to tell me it will be alright again.
Alas, the search continues still.
For someone to lend their shoulder if I wanted to cry.
Yet I am so tired and sleepy.
I do not know if I have the strength anymore.
I may not have run out of tears.
But I guess I may have run out of reasons to use them.
Who would have thought?
One picture can completely change my day. July 15 Bawat hinga'y laan, mundo'y iikot lang sa'yo...Buwan
Wickermoss
Sa aking pag-gising, pangarap kang makita
Pagpintig ng puso mayroong kaba Di ko mailihim, ningning sa aking mata Balang araw, ako'y umaasa ika'y makapiling Sabay ng dalangin at pagbilog ng buwan Paglipas ng araw, pangarap ko'y ganap
Ako'y iyung nasa isip, ako'y hanap-hanap Di raw panaginip, Sa isang iglap magkasama tayo, sa alapaap
Hawak kamay at sabay na humahanga sa
Ganda't liwanag ng buwan Masdan mo giliw, langit sa piling mo
Mundo'y gumaganda, Bawat hinga'y laan sa yo
Sa bawat ihip, at bulong ng hangin ay Mundo'y iikot lang sa'yo Dahil sa pagsubok, lahat ba'y may hangganan
Pag di inukol, walang hahantungan Hayaan na lang isipin, hayaang maghangad Mugto ang matang hawak ko, tangi mong larawan Habang ako ay mag-isang nakatanaw Sa pag-luha ng buwan June 17 Civil War has come!It's been 12 years since I last touched a comic book, and Jon "PP Idol ng Las Piñas" Duque, just comes in telling me about a good series that's coming at Marvel. Skeptical at first, I tried to understand what caused this to happen in the first place. Good thing Jon's a good storyteller (magaling sa bola at kwento e), and I was hooked. Ayan, adik na naman ako comics!
It was somewhat hard for me to start over again. Syempre, I had to try and understand what happens between the last time I read and comic book and what is happening now. Pero it was all worth it. I've never been this addicted to comics and if you're a fan then, you'd really want to get into this.
When Marvel says it is about to shake the entire Marvel Universe, they weren't kidding. Read all about it in Civil
War! Panget kasi kung kukwento ko sa inyo e...
This series has me shocked and in awe, at nasa 2nd part pa lang ah...
Haayy... balik na naman ako sa pagkabata... at least excited na ulet ako! hehehe All the fun and games leads to no work...The past week I've been so busy browsing the Web, being addicted to games I either saw or was recommended to by my friends (Check out my links to know them all).
This has resulted in me not taking my job seriously. It seems this takes up much of my work time, instead of doing actual work. For the first time in months, I've lost focus and now I'm getting late for deadlines. Hey, it's much better to know the answer found in Dracula's riddle than to know what caused the stats to go down, right?
My colleagues feel something's not right here, that it could be a sign of things to come. I hope it's not.
Before that happens, though, let's play! Haayy... this was me then... what about now? nuninuninu...6, 8, 12
Brian McKnight
Ooh, ooh...
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep? In the middle of the night when you're awake, Are you calling out for me? Do you ever reminisce? I can't believe I'm acting like this I know it's crazy How I still can feel your kiss It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away I miss you so much and I don't know what to say I should be over you I should know better but it's just not the case It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away Do you ever ask about me?
Do your friends still tell you what to do? Every time the phone rings, Do you wish it was me calling you? Do you still feel the same? Or has time put out the flame? I miss you Is everything okay? It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away I miss you so much and I don't know what to say I should be over you I should know better but it's just not the case It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind And where is the good in goodbye? Tell me why, tell me why It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away I miss you so much and I don't know what to say I should be over you I should know better but it's just not the case It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away Sing it for me Ooh, ooh... May 31 Tinuninu... (Ok, this is totally unrelated to my last post.)The Final Countdown
Europe Tinuninu...
Tinunininu... Tinuninu... Tinuninunininu... Tinuninu... Tinunininu... Tinuninu... Tinuninunininu... Tinuni... Tinuninunininuni... (Repeat)
We're leaving together,
But still it's farewell And maybe we'll come back, To earth, who can tell ? I guess there is no one to blame We're leaving ground Will things ever be the same again? It's the final countdown
The final countdown The final countdown (Repeat Tinuninu...)
We're heading for Venus
And still we stand tall Cause maybe they've seen us And welcome us all With so many light years to go And things to be found I'm sure that we'll all miss her so. It's the final countdown
The final countdown The final countdown (Repeat Tinuninu...) In loving memory...Since the US celebrated Memorial Day last Monday, sakto lang itong blog ko... hehehe
Check out this blog's title, "In loving memory". It kinda reminds me of obituaries; of what the heading would say to someone who recently died, or to people celebrate a loved one's death anniversary.
A recent event and a very thought-provoking remark made me think about this. The event -- my grandfather is now in a hospital bed, death apparently imminent. He was, I believe, a very proud man, with a very enviable position in the government. You can say that he has maintained a very well-to-do family, and he has a firm control of his life and his family.
Last Sunday, I got to visit him in the hospital, different from what I used to before. His body was frail, and although you can see that he's sound asleep, you also sense that he is listening to his visitors egging him to fight for his life, to hang on. I never had the courage to get close to him, maybe out of sheer respect or fright the way I did when I was a kid then. I remembered that same Sunday morning I was praying to God to take of him whatever happens in the next few days, and I said that same prayer inside the ICU.
I've never been a fan of funerals, rarely checking the corpse inside the casket as I might get a vivid impression of that person in my mind (takot kasi ako sa patay), and I don't want dead people to play there. I've never attended many funerals as well, although there were some memorable ones, which I'd rather not discuss (mahirap na)... hehehe
As I went back outside, my grandfather's sons, my titos, were discussing to my mom and tita how detailed their dad was. They found an envelope with specific instructions on what to do "in case of emergency". Wow! I was surprised, and it only reinforced my assumption of how controlled my lolo was, even planning this. The plans were set, the funeral arrangements, what we should wear, the works! At may pera na para dun ha, allotted na kapag tumaas o bumaba ung presyo! San ka pa?
Looking at it, I was impressed and I really admired what he has done. I've always thought of him as mataas, ung tipong parang di mo makakausap (actually, ganun pa rin tingin ko... hehehe), pero this was one side that I would very much like to emulate. Feeling ko nga tita ko ganito e, parang prepared for everything that gets thrown in her way. Kakainggit ang mga taong ganito, to have so much control of their lives and their families, na sana magaya ko rin sila.
Moving on to part two of this blog. My friend and I talked last Monday night and he asked me if I did love <insert name of person here>. Of course, I gave him my standard answer (It's "yes", for you morons out there), and I also mentioned that I don't know if I still do. Now here is his remark: "Pare, hindi mo na mahal yan, matagal na kayong hindi nagkita e... Mahal mo cguro yung memories of her within you, pero di na tlaga yung tao mismo ang mahal mo."
He has a valid point. Sabi pa nga nya e, "Pano mo mamahalin ang isang taong di mo nakikita, di mo naririnig, di mo nararamdaman?" Of course di na ako humirit pa, baka mag-away pa kami nun! hehehe
"In loving memory", sakto na diba?
Going back to the first topic, naisip ko rin yun, what if yung taong mahal mo wala na dito sa mundo? Di mo na sya makikita, di mo na sya maririnig, di mo na rin mararamdaman presence nya (unless mumu... yikes!). Ibig sabihin ba nun pag tumagal ang panahon e hindi mo na rin mahal yung tao? Does it mean you love him/her less because you're only loving the memories you have of him/her?
Hmm... things got interesting...
What I know is I won't know the answer until I've experienced the same thing my titos are experiencing. We'll see what happens then. Sana andito pa yung blog ko nun diba? Kasi sure nakalimutan ko na yun! hehehe
Whatever happens now, I just want to say to my Lolo Turing that God will most certainly take care of you, as He always has been all your life.
Peace be with you and your family.
Sana ganun din ako kaprepared sa buhay ko. Sure, madaming hassle dahil maraming plano, pero at least ayos ang buhay mo at ng pamilya mo diba?  May 27 Ruthless ResilienceDay 92...
Wow! Has it been that long since I had a cellphone?
 Ever since I lost my last one during that WWE show, I sort of told myself that it wasn't worth the hassle to get one again. Bakit pa e hindi ko naman masyadong ginagamit, diba? And the expenses I'm sure to pay for using another phone, prepaid (or postpaid na?) charges and the phone itself maybe too much for me to bear.
Syempre, family and friends would argue that I would only need a not too expensive phone, "di ko naman masyadong gagamitin diba?". May point naman sila, kaso ayaw ko pa rin e... hehehe
Their dependence on these gadgets -- Highly dependent
My bosses' need to contact me immediately when something important comes up -- Very likely
The maddening look on their faces practically begging me to have a f*cking phone? Priceless!
 Halos lahat na ginawa nila, from offering to sell their second-hand phones, to renting old ones, even lending me a Blackberry. Pero ayaw ko pa rin. So, bakit nga ba ayaw ko gumamit ng cellphone? At first, I was trying to prove a point -- remember the days when there were no cellphones? Kaya naman natin mabuhay ng ganun diba? Pag nag-uusap, as in sa landline lang talaga. The next thing you know, I was trying to see kung gaano ko katagal matitiis ito. And guess what? Kaya ko pa tiisin! Problema nga lang, yung pamilya at kaibigan ang di na makatiis! hahaha!
 After more than three months, tinanong ko nalang sa sarili ko why I still don't want to have a cellphone. My answer: it's because I still don't find it necessary in my life right now.
Maybe I'll finally get one when I finally find the right phone, maybe when I finally find the right reason to own one.
Till then, the Ruthless Resilience continues, maybe until August 15.
Bakit August 15? Secret! hehehe  May 24 Tonight, TonightWhat's in store for me tonight? Probably the most grueling and tension-filled work I'll be doing since last year!
 At least I know that there will be no more  for me during my shift, as my brain won't have much thought about that.Here's hoping that I get done today, as I feel for my colleagues who will have to endure much more pain and suffering in their respective tasks. Good luck to all of us!  May 17 Alone tonight...Haayyy... Yes, I'm on the dreaded night shift again. You'd think that working at the middle of the night coming from sickness is bad enough, wait till you find out that you're the only QC aboard for the entire journey. How am I supposed to work properly without someone trying to wake me up every now and then? ha!
I can't, and I don't trust the people sitting in the workstations of my colleagues. They're not supposed to be here in the first place, but they find our PCs "comfortable". Ha! Maybe they should try making their own stations comfortable, then they won't complain that much! I'm not particularly happy that most of the time I go to work, there is someone in my PC working and having fun with his/her teammates, while I can spot ten to twenty PCs they can fully use to their heart's content.
Don't get me wrong. These guys are the so-called "frontliners" in where I work. But come on now, the reason we have our own PCs is to let us have the freedom to save huge files (porn, MP3s and WMAs?) onto their hard drives, lessening the hassle of always uploading them on the ever so slow server. You can have unlimited browsing capabilities anyway, so what's the point in using our own PCs?
I'm just ranting, that's all. Maybe I need to get some sleep. Maybe I need medicine (I suddenly feel cold). Maybe I just want to go home (please let it be 6:30 now!). Or maybe I just need to be "comfortable" with these guys.
Ahh... To be alone tonight... February 27 12 years in the making...1994. I was on my second year in high school then. Wrestling was a big thing for my friends; at times we were reenacting the famous "Hulk Up"
by Hogan coming from the sleeper hold. Me and my friends almost always talked about wrestling those days, and we came across news that they would come to Manila to do a series of shows. I even caught HBK Shawn Michaels promote this show on Eye to Eye with Inday Badiday. All I could think about then was What a lame way to promote a show, as Inday Badiday (God bless her soul), in her famous hoarse voice, repeatedly asked HBK if he remembered her name (haha!) .We were excited to know that famous wrestlers such as HBK, Bret Hart (before he was "screwed"), Sycho Sid (ok, so he really isn't what you call "famous"), Vader, and many others were gonna wrestle at the Araneta Coliseum, but we also knew that it would be impossible for us to watch them perform. Of course, we still have school to take care of, and also it's because of the almighty peso rearing its ugly head on us hapless students. So I said to myself then that given the time, chance, and of course, the money, I would definitely want to see WWE wrestling live.
You see, I've been a wrestling fan ever since WWF Superstars was a show on IBC-13. Immortal icons and names such as Hulk Hogan, "Macho Man" Randy Savage, Andre the Giant, Ultimate Warrior, Demolition, The Hart Foundation, The Rockers and Legion of Doom were all I watched every Wednesday nights at 10 pm (afterwhich, there is the Gorgeous Ladies of Wrestling G.L.O.W.
 ). I would make sure to watch every PPV they've got, from Wrestlemania, Summerslam, King of the Ring, Survivor Series to the Royal Rumble. There are still parts from those shows (Bret calling Jerry Lawler "Burger King", Repo Man cheating his way in the Rumble, Savage giving five Macho Man elbows and the Warrior not selling them) that I can vividly remember, and it just shows how wrestling has been imprinted in me.Fast forward to 2006. Twelve years since that day, and the now WWE decided to have another show here in Manila. So many things have changed since those days: I already graduated from school and am now earning money from a "good" employer. This time, I said, I'm going to see those wrestlers perform. I've got the time, chance, and the money, so who or what is going to stop me now?
People I've talked to before told me that to watch wrestling on TV is great, but to watch it live is by far very different. Now I can definitely say that that is so true!
On TV, you can't help but cheer for the good guy, and boo the bad guy. Seeing it live, it doesn't matter. Yes, you can really see that it's all fake, that the wrestling moves were kind of sloppy, that the punches really don't hit the guy, and they just stomp their feet on the wrestling mat to make it sound like it was a hard blow, but it doesn't matter. All that matters is that they're here, live and in the flesh, to perform for you.
Just hearing the entrance music of RVD, Carlito, Ric Flair and HHH gave me goosebumps, and I kept cheering for them without affiliation! No face, no heel. The great thing is I'm not the only one! Every wrestling fan there at the show cheered, happy just to see them.
I hope the WWE wrestlers see and feel the same enthusiasm that I saw and felt that night. I hope they loved our reaction to the show. What does this mean?
WE WANT ANOTHER SHOW!!!
Yes, I am a die-hard wrestling fan. WWE, please make me happy.  February 25 WWE Raw Live in Manila PhotosSorry, I'll upload the photos my camera's battery is fully charged. WWE Raw Live In Manila ResultsHere's the RAW Live Tour recap:
1st match: Eugene def. Tyson Tomko
Eugene was wearing a "Team Pacquiao" jacket! Cool! Eugene won with a Stone Cold Stunner.
2nd match: Chris Masters def. Val Venis
Masters did the ass dance. Think of it as one bodybuilder would do to this pecs, instead Masters does it with his ass! First time I laughed at Masters! Also, Masters had lots of pimples on his back, possibly one proof he's on roids (as if being that ripped isn't proof enough!) Masters won with, what else, the Masterlock.
3rd match: Viscera def. Gene Snitsky
Kinda boring match. Crowd was really looking forward to Big Vis' buttrape!! eeewww!!!! I've noticed that Snitsky still doesn't know how to play with the crowd.
4th match: Trish Stratus def. Torrie Wilson (Women's Championship Match)
Missed Trish's hand by two inches! Match was sloppy. Instead of doing the handstand on the corner, which was blocked by Torrie, Trish did it in the middle of the ring and did the helicopter head scissors. Trish won with the chick kick.
5th match: Rob Van Dam def. Carlito Cool
I touched RVD's hand! I touched RVD's hand!
Carlito teased about giving his shirt which read, "Do you spit or swallow?". Instead, he just gave it to the stagehand, saying that that shirt costs money. That got tons of boos from the crowd! Man, Carlito really knows how to play with the crowd!
Carlito tried to get the crowd on his side, to no avail. RVD offered to try, and asked Carlito to move to another corner. RVD went up the second rope, and as he did the PTS (Points To Self) thing, Carlito pushed him out! RVD had, from my point of view, an awkward fall, but Carlito just laughed at what he did!
Some spots include RVD teasing a 5-star frogsplash, but instead went with the Van Daminator on the apron when Carlito moved. RVD won with a 5-star frogsplash.
6th match: Shelton Benjamin def. Ric Flair (Intercontinental Championship Match)
Shelton came first, and told how his mama told him to be focused on his match, since she won't be there with him. Shelton was good, knowing when to pause, as the crowd kept chanting "What?" everytime!!! After that, we teased and called him "Mama's boy!!!" Flair came next, and the chants soon came after (Woooo!!!). He took the mic as well, saying that Manila is Flair Country as well!! Every word Flair said was greeted with a resounding "Wooo!!!"
Now, back to the match. We can really see that Shelton was very cautious with Flair, as the headlock takedown took so long to unfold! Shelton's punches to Flair missed by a mile, but the chops, oh the chops!, were loud and crisp, and did I already say "LOUD"??? Shelton locked in the figure four on Flair, with the crowd desperately trying to bring Flair back and reverse the hold. In the end, Flair locked in the figure four on Shelton but Shelton hung on the ropes. Shelton won with a pin with a "little" hold on the bottom rope.
7th match: Triple H def. Big Show (Street Fight)
Man, now I know how really long Triple H's entrance is! But the crowd was fired up once his music started! Match was pretty standard for both of them. One sequence had Big Show doing the "Shhh!" chop, to which Triple H gave him two birds and then flopped! :lol: The crowd was shouting for Triple H to get the sledgehammer, but Triple H instead got a cord (booo!!!!) Eventually, Triple H got a chair, to which Big Show punched with his bare hand! Triple H got the ring steps and put it in the ring. Big Show got the steps, but Triple H got the chair. He hit Big Show in the gut, making his neck land into the ring steps he just carried. Triple H finished him with a chairshot at the back of the head (Ouch!). No Lady Sledge here.
Final match: John Cena def. Edge (WWE Championship Match) w/ special referee Mick Foley
Cena was wearing black Pumps today. His shoes have baller IDs in them? Never saw that before. Lita was hot! And I mean that in a good, "hot" way. She had a beautiful face (really), although we noticed that she might have increased bra sizes again. Match started with the game of "Mercy". Of course, "Superman" Cena won and got an advantage. Anyway, Edge kept going out of the ring and kissing Lita, prompting Foley to get a mic and tell them that if they kiss one more time, Edge will be disqualified. Then Edge, instead distracted Foley long enough for Lita to choke Cena with the second rope. This happened twice, until Foley caught Lita doing it. Crowd sang the "Na Na Na Na He He Hey Goodbye!" chant to get her out of there. Cena was actually surprised that we know that (What the hell does he think we watch? Heat?), and then started to play with the crowd by asking us to sing it much louder.
Match got kinda boring with Cena doing his funky hip drop, funky suplex and his variety (?) of clotheslines and punches. Edge got an advantages and used a sleeper hold. Crowd fired up the "Let's go Cena" chants. In between those chants, you can really hear vague "Let's go Edge" chants as well!
Match continued back and forth until endgame, when there was a ref bump and Edge used a slingshot to Cena on an exposed turnbuckle. Foley counted to 2, and Edge was disappointed he speared Foley. With Foley out of the way, Lita came back and got the Bling Belt, but Cena caught Lita. Too bad Edge found his way to the belt and smashed Cena's head with it after being distracted by Lita. The new referee came, and counted to 2. Edge speared the new referee again, as Lita then held on the Cena. Edge got the belt and tried to hit Cena, but Cena moved and Edge hit Lita instead. With Edge worried about what he had done, Cena took advantage, held Edge for the FU, just in time for Foley to get the 1, 2, 3.
After the match, Foley said two words, "Mahal Kita", to his "adopted" kid, Herma Grace (read Foley's blog, or should I say column, for more info). Then he gave the mic to Cena. Cena mentioned that Manila is not his town (prompting us to wildly speculate, and fruitlessly hope that Batista would come to the ring), but it's the Filipinos town.
That's it for tonight's show. They'll be back tomorrow, but I won't be going.
Hoping for WWE's plan on holding a Smackdown show this October! I definitely won't miss it! December 21 2005: In RetrospectLooking back, I can honestly say that it has been quite a year for me. I have
experienced a different kind of high last year, and as the old guys say, "What
goes up, must come down", I came CRASHING down this year.
My life was in shambles at the end of the first half, and I strugged to keep
myself afloat towards the second half. I missed out on very good job
opportunities, and at times became disillusioned with the company I continue to
work for. I knew that I hit rock-bottom, even saying to myself that this is
the worst year of my life so far.
I have to admit, I am very disappointed in myself for doing some pretty stupid
things that left me out on some very good opportunities. Here I am, still
stuck in the same job at the same work, whereas I could have been earning more
or having more responsibility in a different environment.
Maybe the fates (or destiny?) have something to do with this, but come on, part
or most of the blame has to be pointed at me, right?
Of course, I never count out the positives that go with the negatives, an
optimist (and oftentimes a pessimist) as I am.
This is the year I can say that I have been closest to my friends, my
officemates, my family, and GOD. Yes, it is true that you can always call on
Him whenever you need help. He will not respond right away, but at least you
can tell Him everything you want to say, anytime and anywhere. The time I
spent with Him has been fruitful, helping me realize things about myself, about
others, about life. I'd probably still be stuck in the mud without His help.
I have been a recipient of many meaningful conversations and insights that
helped me stay sane. A few of my questions were ultimately answered, some have
been in part, while others remain unresolved. I know that GOD has answers to
these, and He chose to give it to me in parts. I guess there's not much fun in
life without the suspense.
That is the main reason I am looking forward to next year. There's so many
things to get excited about, with RAW coming to Manila (Feb. 24 and 25 at the
Araneta Coliseum), a new environment to work with, and a bevy (I hope) of
opportunities to come. And that's all in the first quarter!
That's it for 2005. At first I wished this year was erased from my memory, but
now, I don't want to. There are lots for me to learn from 2005, and when the
time comes, I'll look back again to this year, "THE WORST YEAR IN MY LIFE SO
FAR!"
See you in 2006! |
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